0:00 - Disclaimer / Intro
3:43 - Early Life
4:49 - Teen Life
6:20 - College / Post-college Life / Dating Life
8:03 - Questioning Gender / Therapy History
9:33 - Gender Therapist / Dysphoria
10:22 - HRT / Doctor / Health Issues
11:30 - Doctors won't admit issues are due to hormones
12:23 - Transitioning Honeymoon Phase
13:44 - Re-questioning Phase (1+ Year) / No Help
16:49 - I Regret Transitioning / Purely Self-harm
18:08 - Uneducated Therapists and Doctors
22:44 - I shouldn't have been allowed to transition
Notice: This is my channel. I get to upload whatever topic I want to.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pPw0LX-kAY8
This video talks about brainwashing of mentally ill people through the medium of music. Specifically, I talk about a band called Black Dresses, but there are more. Black Dresses is a band that is composed of Devi and Rook, two 30 year old trans identified men who sing about being girls, trauma, mental illness, and narcissism.
Black Dresses Music:
https://blackdresses.bandcamp.com/
This video is meant to shed light on these issues, nothing more.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0Ws09ge_Qk
I recommend 2x speed if you're able to understand me still.
0:00 laying down, vertigo, 6:23am haven't slept, neuroses
1:29 obsessive thought loop transition / detransition, affirmative model, truth about gender therapists
5:28 transitioned for dysphoria, vitiligo / autoimmune, hairy, laser hair removal
9:15 some thoughts of mine, not showering, amazon groceries, not detransitioning, become a monk
19:51 doubting transition, suffering, r/detrans, MtFtM, having kids, adoption
30:33 was going to marry someone, bad relationship, detransition
40:41 feelin' good, easily influenced on computer, wearing girl's clothes in high school, gay
45:16 i guess i don't wanna detrans, gender, clothes, family connections & personalities, jealousy
1:03:50 i love being trans, fertility, hallucinations, relationships, bpd
1:19:50 betrayal and bpd, ramble, gay
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCqs0j76Afs