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LYRICS:
stay or leave
but I'll always make it so complicated
inextricable thoughts
entangled by my own obsessive mind
but I don't believe
that I could make you happy
unless I become someone else
so what's the point in that?
fuck...
and I don't believe
I'm all that crafty
to transmute myself
so what the fuck is the point in that?
Well I'll tear myself apart
and pretend that I'll be done
convoluting all these thoughts
till I believe that you're the only one
honesty is only sometimes the best policy
when I'm not sure if I'm even honest with myself
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jnIQcFeUXk
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Lyrics:
I should go to therapy
but I'm tired of waiting for results that I am meant to see
is it something with my chemistry or mentally?
either way the enemy is me especially when I must take these pills
to maintain a muddy facade of sanity
I smile and laugh but I am mortified
as I become the image of anxiety
leading to the point where I am drowning it in hennese,
desperately popping xans, combining it with ecstasy
when I was young there was a hunch that something's wrong with me
but I'm still not sure what's really going on
cause when I fall asleep
a plague of suffocating viscera invades my dreams
I'm so fucking tired of the pain
and I'm tired of this song
I know there's many others worse off
but on this earth I feel I don't belong and I've
Lost my mind
I won't kill myself
but that doesn't mean that I don't want to
scared to die but also to live
my trembling voice will not disappear
Lost my mind
scared to die but also to live
lost my mind
my trembling voice will not disappear
x2
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGQ5FMWcdrQ
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Lyrics:
before you leave
could you forget everything we had
and leave me here to sulk and be sad ?
when you leave
could you pack up everything you gave me?
leave me to be deaf and lonely
take my heart
even though you won't hold it dear
take my life
Just make me disappear
and I can't sleep with all these thoughts about you
you'll sleep soundly knowing I can't push through
you'll not hear from me again
before I grieve
could you forget that I'm going mad?
let me fade, forget all of the
bad moments shared
and although you might hate me, dear
Don't look back
you've got nothing more to fear
But I can't sleep with all these thoughts about you
you'll sleep soundly knowing I can't have you
you'll not hear from me again
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ypFOtZV_Q6U
Searching For a Window and Finding a Mirror by Endo from the two-track concept album L'appel Du Vide
https://allmylinks.com/endo
LYRICS:
I’ve had a craving to exist these past few days
The caveat being it has to be with you
And if I were to take a single step closer
To reach out and touch you,
The wind I create in movement might tear you apart
If I try to connect to you
Your gaze would break like mirrors
If I were to feel you,
You’d shatter into pieces
Like a glass coffin being the only thing holding in a soul ready to leave
I speak to you and you begin to show the telltale signs of cracks
The sonority of syllables, crushing you to dust
I must remain still, but still I remain, never knowing stillness until I’m empty, nothing will remain
Fragility is beautiful, as painful as it is
But I would let my bones explode if only for a kiss
You took your step towards me
You’ve reached my neck
You’ve shattered, slit my throat
Fragility is beautiful, as painful as it is
But I would let my bones explode if only for a kiss
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8D_s04Vjz98
This video is very important for those who deal with mental illness, and those who don't understand it.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBsSEVqVxW4
Twelve - Endo - Save Me (New Music 2020)
Lyrics:
How have I wasted so much time?
Falling apart
Waiting for you
Pretending I’m fine
I followed you anywhere
While you led me astray
I told you I died for you
Did that mean anything?
Oh
How did I give you so much life?
While killing myself
Your heart was untrue
I’m out of my mind
I followed you into hell
You left me to die
I told you I’d love you forever
You forced me to lie
So when the blades are dry
And the wounds have healed
I’ll destroy emotions
‘Cause it still hurts to feel
Oh
So when my eyes are dry
And my heart stays sealed
I’ll forget it all
Because I don’t want to feel
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Si32gFNlqs
This is my 1 year update of my Dreadlock Journey
my dreadlocks are the neglect method with occasional seperation of congos
I tried blunting the tips with a crochet hook but it didn't work so no harm no foul
I did not use interlocking, backcombing or twist n rip to create these dreadlocks
I also spoke a bit about the spiritual reasons that I wear my hair like this and spirituality in general
SOCIALS:
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Check out my new EP : A Taste of Things to Come
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Check out the most popular song on the album: This Song F***ing Sucks ( This song Fucking Sucks, fuck)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGQ5FMWcdrQ
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdGeuIzj4DM